In Friendship, Jealousy is Normal or Not?

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone,

Right now I'm in a state of confusion. I have a guy friend and he also my bestfriend. I'll name him A. We are so close so we share lot of secrets, spend most of our time together and help each other when needed. I am so thankful for that. then, this one girl came into our life and she is also my friend. I introduce her to A cause we started to study together. From what I see, this girl is attention seeker. She like to have A's attention and I dont know why. For your info, she has bf already but study in other state. At first A dont like her personality and he tell me that. He always complain to me about her. the girl also started to do what I like to do with him. For example, we jokes and slap each other body just for fun but we did naturally. She suddenly did that to A in front of me and normal reaction for A, he slap back. I was like "whatever". As time flies, she always did that repeatedly when we study together to the point it's so annoying. Then she quit university. We lost contact for few months. 

One night, I texted A for dinner but he said he cannot go cause he go dinner with this girl. I'm so surprise that they still in touch. Everything was okay and suddenly I feel like A are keeping secret from me. He started to focus on this girl a lot and I get pushed aside. They always make plans together but also complaining about each other to me. Sometimes, she asked me whether I want to join them for an event. I said I'll think about it. Then she said "If u dont wanna go, I'm not going also" and want to register together. It turn out she register already without telling me. So I end up didnt register cause past due date. and Sometimes, A tell me the girl's problem and ask whether she tell me. I said she didnt tell me anything. Then I found out she share lot of her problems with him including her relationship problem. I dont have a problem about her sharing her problem to him, but why involve me in the situation. It seems like she want to tell me that she's close to A compared to me. Maybe I thought wrong but that's what I feel. Whenever three of us go out together, they always slapping each other, jokes around while I'm there like a street lamp post. Nowadays, they often go out together and he didnt even tell me and of course I know from the girl. He also start to forgot something that I ask. Maybe I'm not "memahami" enough. I just assume he has lot of things in his mind to think about. 

At some point, I feels like my existence are not important anymore to him and I feels he's so far for me to reach. I feels so sad when they jokes around together eventho I'm there with them. I just laugh at their jokes but feels awkward with them. I dont know whether I'm just overthinking or being a dramatic but I do feels lonely around them. My heart hurt but I fake a smile and laugh together with them. 

So let me ask u guys. Am I being dramatic? or Overthinking? or Jealous? Is this normal in friendship? What do u guys think? 

Mother's Day

Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone..

Dah lama kan tak update post..Haaaaaa..Kali ni post aku pasal Mother's Day..macam yang korang tau, ibu/mak/mama ape-ape je la yang korang panggil, dah mengandungkan kita selama 9 bulan pastu lahirkan kita walaupon sakit beranak tu memang sakit gila..dah jadi tanggungjawab kita la kena hormat, tolong, jaga hati diorg, macam-macam lagi la untuk buat diorang happy..

Aku ni still student, so tak boleh nak balas jasa diorang in term of money..Jadi, aku buat keputusan nak buat video special for Mother's Day..Special for mothers outside there especially my dearest mom..So here's my Mother's Day video down below. [Mohon jangan kecam la ye..al maklum la..newbie lagi..hehehehehe]

Oh yea, by the time aku post video ni..Mother's Day dah lepas dua minggu dah..tapi I dont care..nak jugak post..hehehe..okay la..sampai sini je post aku..Enjoy the video and leave comments down there or can comment directly at my youtube channel or click this link below.. 

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx0fcNwtup5_bqKSEWvR9dQ

Pesanan aku for this post is jangan la pernah sakitkan hati parents kita walaupon sometimes kita rasa tak puas hati dengan diorang..Every single decision they made ada hikmahnya..They just want us to be safe..Tak ada parents yang waras want to hurt their own child..So hargai diorang sementara diorang masih ada and for yang dah kehilangan, sedekah la Al-Fatihah. Cheers.

Melbourne's memories

Assalamualaikum & hello~

Memandangkan time ni aku tetiba rindu my friends dekat Melbourne, so nak kongsi sikit..eh jap..nak kongsi banyak la..hehehe..pasal aku, diorang and Melbourne. ape? xnak tau? alaaaa~~~ nak cerita jugak..! hahaha..kalau xnak tau jugak...ermmmmm..kena baca jugak..LOL..

Before I tell u guys about my friends, I would like to tell u about my first year. Honestly speaking, my first year dekat Melbourne was my worst year ever in term of social life. It was my first time leaving Malaysia. I never felt that lonely, scared, sorrow and lost before. I went there alone [my parent can't follow me cause flight ticket's so expensive] and stayed at the temporary apartment in the city. I arrived in Melbourne a week earlier before orientation week. That time, I was struggle with finding a house to rent. I searched for almost two weeks and luckily I found one near my University. When my classes's start, I can't even make friends with my classmate or people in the university and plus my English are not that good. To make it short, one year I'm in Melbourne, I managed to get just 1 viatnamese friend [I posted my photo with her in the previous story] and kitorang still kawan sampai sekarang. I think I wasted a year of my time there doing nothing. Just stayed in my room even on my semester break.

Luckily, one guy named Syam from my university's Malaysian Club approached me and asked me to join the club. At first, I hesitated to join since I don't have any friend to registered together. I'm really want to thanks him cause he insists at that time and make me register. so he was my second friend there. From that moment, he introduced me to the fellow Malaysian members. After that, whenever they saw me in campus, they will wave or say hi or smile at me. I feel so happy and started to like my life there.

After that I moved to Malaysian Hall Melbourne. It's a student residential for MALAYSIAN only. There were lots of Malaysian student staying there from different university. This is the place where my life getting better and better. I can proudly said that I really love living there. Masa dekat Malaysian Hall, aku ada kawan-kawan yang rapat dengan aku. Diorang ni dah macam my brothers and sisters, my small family to be exact. I feels like I'm in Malaysia and close to my family when they're around. we had each others back, eat together, play together, watching movies together, laugh together, sharing stories together, road trip together, hiking together, gossiping, senang cerita kebanyakan aktiviti memang kitorang buat sesama.

Unfortunately, I have to go back to Malaysia due to a few factors yang xdapat nak elak. One day, at the restaurant after finished our dinner, I told them that I'm going back for good. They looks suprised and the girls are crying while the boys just sit there quietly. That make me sad and can't hold my tears anymore. I cried with them that night. A few week after that, they throw me a farewell party. It was so great and nice to be with all of them before fly back. I'm really thankful for what they did for me. At that time I know for sure that they really love me [hahahaha..perasan kejap..]. And I admit that I love them sooooooo much. Then I fly back to Malaysia with mixed feeling. Happy and sad at the same time.

Tujuan aku tulis cerita ni bukan nak bangga yang aku pernah belajar kat Melbourne, tapi nak cerita how thankful i am having friends like them. So, nak ambil kesempatan ni nak cakap THANK YOU SO MUCH cause sudi jadi my friend and be with me during my up and down, support me everytime i feels like want to give up. For korang yang curious sape kawan aku yang baik gila ni, I'm proudly present their name [gambar xboleh bagi sorang-sorang sebab nanti korang bawak jumpa bomoh pulak..hahahaha..just kidding..] :

1. Dillah [my lovely twin]
2. Syam [my MARIO game buddy]

3. Syed [my best buddy]

4. Syazwan [my Mr.President]

5. Kak Dayah [my dearest kakak]

6. Awin [my cute friend]

7. All my friends [Malaysian Hall peeps, Malaysian Club peeps, Melbourne peeps that know me]

Mesti korang macam terpikir kan? Dah kenapa pulak aku letak nama diorang ni? Bukan diorang tau pon. Bukannya penting pon bagi korang kan? hahha..tapi aku xkisah..nak jugak letak nama diorang..sebab diorang ni my precious friends..hahaha..

Last sekali, nak bagitau korang yang kawan memang senang nak dapat, tapi kawan yang nak besusah dan senang dengan kita susah nak cari. 

For my friends that I mention above, all the best in your study there. I always pray for your success. I will always remember all our precious memories that we shared together. Thank you again and I really miss u guys, like a lots..I love u eternally!!

my farewell party's Group photo

Tetiba rasa macam story kali ni emo pulak..hahaha..but I don't care..still nak share dengan korang..LOL..